Doubting self

Countless times I doubt myself,
Countless times I let it slip.
Countless times the doubts I have
Are nothing but lies.

Self confidence cannot be bought
Self confidence a valued asset
The mistakes of the past a lesson learnt
Countless times it weighs me down


Outline your strengths
Know your weaknesses
Device a plan to work it out.

Doubting myself is nothing but a lie
To keep me from reaching my goal.
I've got help, I've got all I need
His strength is made perfect in my weakness. Selah

Lucy

I watched the movie Lucy a few months ago and I really liked it. I wasn't so thrilled by all the action and thrills of the movie but rather I was drawn by the message of the movie (well… what I got from it).

Lucy was an ordinary lady like me, until she got super powers from a pack of drugs she was transporting (she was a drug mule) that went burst in her. What I thought was going to kill her made her supernatural. She developed so many super powers she never even thought possible. She could hear other people's thoughts, could understand foreign languages, could fight really well and had knowledge about everything. She wasn't normal.

At the end of the movie she disappeared just like Enoch in the Bible. This got me thinking about how as Christians we should be supernatural. We have the Holyspirit living in us (pause) think about this! The Holyspirit is infinite in His abilities, He is God! Just like Lucy, we have super powers which can make us do the impossible and impact our world in ways no one can imagine. We can all live beyond our natural abilities; we have the strength and the wisdom of God available for us to tap into. Yet how come very few get to experience these powers? The answer is simple! Until we form a strong bond with Him and allow him take over our body, mind and soul we won't actualise this.

Let us therefore quit trying to be normal, let's be supernatural by forming a strong bond with God, reading His word to understand who we should be, praying to Him to help us use the supernatural powers available to us (not for selfish gains) for the expansion of his kingdom.

Remember "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13)".

 

Trapped!

A few months ago whilst I was on my way out, I bumped into my neighbor who was gardening. She seemed particularly engrossed with a plant in a unique flower pot. I was more interested in the flower pot to be honest and asked her where she got it from. she went on to tell me it was passed on to her by her mother (by the way my neighbor is in her late 60s) and she has had the plant in the pot for 25 years!

below is the plant in the pot

Would you be shocked if I told you that the plant you see in the flower pot is an Oak tree?!!! I tell you I was shocked and something jolted within me. How can an oak tree be so small? Its 25 years old for crying out loud. it should be doing a lot more than sitting in a pot!! check out the image below for a "proper" oak tree.

I do not know the age of the tree above but I sure know that a 25 year old tree should be somewhat close to that in height and should have more leaves. 

My Neighbor's tree is obviously TRAPPED (pardon my shouting). Does this resonate with something on the inside of you? Can you think of areas in your life where you may be trapped? Where you should be flourishing but are not? Have you limited yourself by not thinking or stepping outside the box?  

As I was talking to my neighbor she noticed my shock and said " I really ought to go plant this oak tree in the forest so it can reach its full potential" and I couldn't agree more. To be trapped in that little pot for over 25 years is against the purpose of the oak tree. Just like me, think about areas in your life where you may be trapped and make that decision to break free! Selah

I could go on and on about the message I got from my little encounter but I wont, think about it for yourself and make that change!

Its been so long

I have been meaning to blog for a while now but a lot has happened since my last post. I have had a baby so now I am officially a mother of 2! I never knew life could be so busy but guess what? I'm loving it and count it a great privilege to be a mother.

I love Autumn. The beauty of the golden leaves scattered on the ground and the crisp weather is what makes me love it so much. Interestingly there is a lot to learn from the shedding of leaves in Autumn. When we allow God to break us and mold us into his plan for us, it can be similar to the shedding of leaves in Autumn. The fact that the leaves have fallen off and the trees look gaunt does not mean it is over, its just a season in the life of the tree. In Spring, the leaves grow back and the flowers boom and once again people will be able to take shelter under the tree.

Life has happened since the last time I was here and hopefully I'm back for good now. My next post is about something that resonated deep within me when I encountered it and I cant wait to share it. This blog is intended to be a diary of lessons I'm learning on my journey to be a better person. If you stumble upon this blog and are blessed, praise the Lord.

No Resolution

Its the beginning of a new year and just like previous years, I am tempted to make new year resolutions! I guess we all make resolutions because we feel we have a clean slate to make amends where we failed. Last year just like previous years I resolved in my heart to do things differently. Whilst I succeeded in some, I failed in others and the feeling of guilt on 31/12./2012 clouded my judgement until God delivered me.

The truth is I didnt fail at all for not accomplishing all my resolutions in 2012. If anything I am a better person than I was on 01/01/2012. I am wiser and I learnt a lot of things about myself. I am thankful for my family, friends and experiences 2012 brought and because of that I have resolved not to put pressure on myself in 2013.

The only goal I have set myself in 2013 is to stretch myself to be a better person and to do the impossible which in myself I cant do alone but with God's help I can.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I want change (not coins)

I want to change! But not alll of me!
I want to be better but it seems so hard
I want to lie in bed till its late, but there are so many tasks piling up
I want to eat what I want  like ice-creams and chocolate and dont want to be fat
I want to go shopping and have savings in the bank at the same time
I want to touch my world without leaving the comfort of my sofa.
Grow up! Get up! Take action, change is all I need.

(Rant Over)

I tell myself everyday and I mean everyday that tommorow I will be a better person. I know I have to take definite steps and be strict about it but its hard! I really do want to change so I can be a better person but its proving really difficult. It appears I am set in my ways! For example, I know I should eat more vegetables and fruits, but I load myself with carbs. I know I should exercise more, but I always seem to have an excuse not to go to the gym.

I have been thinking really hard and I think the time is now to indeed change these bad habbits. Its not going to be easy, but I must pay now to play later. So with this in mind, I have decided on these immediate steps and I will like you to challenge me on it every time you visit this blog. (This piece serves as a means for me to be accountable to you!)

1. Exercise for a minimum of 30 mins everyday (I have a workout DVD at home)
2. Eat Salad as a meal everyday and have at least 3 fruits during the course of the day
3. Cut out Sugar
4. Read something to help develop myself spiritually and in my career everday for at least 1 hour

My battle with acne

Pre - October 2010
Before I got pregnant over 2 years ago, I was one of those ladies with a blemish free face. I only ever had one or two pimples when it was that time of the month and that was it.  So about 6 months into my pregnancy, my face started erupting with pimples! You can imagine my horror when I looked into the mirror and not only had my face and nose doubled in size, but my entire face had spots! People said that I would be back to my old self after the baby came and I believed them.

Present Day
How wrong they were! My kid is 20 months old and I still battle with acne. I have tried a lot of treatments and just when I think I may have found the magic cure, the acne comes back with a vengeance! I have gone from expensive creams to the cheapest in my quest to find a cure. So I finally decided not to bother myself any more with expensive creams since they are not working.

I use body shop tea tree facial wash  and will start using natural products that can be found at home like bicarbonate of soda as an exfoliator, nutmeg and milk mask, lemon and honey mask and finally Aloe vera.

Fingers crossed something will work soon.